the greg apple

just woke. 5.45am, sent greg a message, he’s on his way soon. really going to miss him, he has been the most wonderful friend these last few months.

nothing has ever been too much to ask, and he is always ready to deliver advice, always opinionated, mostly sensible — whether one wants to hear it or not is another thing — but good friends don't mince words. good friends are real.

and one thing i realised last night, why greg is so big, so tall …
you wouldn’t be able to fit a heart as big as his in any other body …

we had a lovely time yesterday afternoon at his farewell drinks at The Tilbury… everyone else turned up quite fashionably late, but that was nice: it gave the two of us an hour or so to chat, laugh, be silly, be serious, and not have any other time pressures upon us … so long since we did that, and I have no idea why.

i spend too much of my life doing things that i don't really like doing, and this keeps me from the things i love doing — being amongst my family and friends. i got a little teary as we said goodbye, but at least greg now knows how important he is to me, to us, to all of us.

i wish him godspeed
… and secretly hope he hates nyc …

… because if it all works out over there — and come on, why wouldn’t it with talent like greg’s — it might be the last we see of him for a very long time indeed.

and although greg’s life and career are of the utmost importance, i have to say that all of us would be sad so see him go for good. i know that’s a dreadfully selfish thing to say, but after everything i have been through, my family and friends are more important to me than they have ever been, and relationships are worth fighting for.

so, new york, don’t be too nice to him … you can be a very seductive place …
show him some fun, but not too much fun. deal? poifict.

godspeed, greg … godspeed.

addendum: sms just in from greg:

Thanks for coming yesterday. I had a fantastic night.
I am so lucky to have such wonderful friends.

via sms Sunday, 9 October 2005, 08:39

greg: the fact that you have great friends is not coincidence. it is a reflection on who you are to yourself, and who you are to us. we love you. xx